I’m so glad I’m sick.

So I have recently been diagnosed with Ross River Virus. I won’t bore you with all the details, but for those who don’t know much about this virus, it is extremely debilitating, with excruciating joint and muscle pain as well as a general feeling of what I can only describe as blaaaaarrrrrrggggghhhhh.

Needless to say, it hasn’t been fun. Frustratingly, I had a virus almost at the same time last year, with nearly identical symptoms that lasted the best part of two months. I am not at all impressed that once again I find myself in the same predicament this year.

Anyone who knows me, knows I am an ‘action’ girl, not as in action figure, like Wonderwoman or something, although, that would be super cool…but, I digress.

Basically, I find it hard to not be doing ‘stuff’. Now, please don’t mistake this with super productivity – I can be as lazy as the next person but I am always busy. Busy having fun, that is.

Enforced inactivity is NO FUN AT ALL 😦

The only way to get over this virus is rest, rest, rest. And then when you feel better, you know what you get to do?? Rest some more. Yep. It’s a long recovery process, apparently, if you want to ensure it doesn’t recur, which I do. So, I am going to have to do what I am told (always hard at the best of times!) and lay low for awhile.

My life now consists of some very minimal light work duties (the boss is really strict and gets cranky easily if I try to outstay my welcome in the office), and then the rest of the day is spent either in my recliner or laying on the bed.

The exhaustion renders my brain into a sloppy, sluggish mass with only a small window of reasonable working capacity which I rightly save for my light work duties, so working on my novel is out, as is reading any ‘writerly’ books. All I have is the odd game on facebook, draw something, reading ‘holiday’ books, the occasional rambling blog post 🙂 and introspection.

And you know what? Now that I have accepted that resting is just the way it is right now, the enforced quiet and introspection has given me the gift of thankfulness.

I am thankful for:

• my husband/nurse/cook/boss/driver/house cleaner. Without such an outstanding man, I could not recuperate and relax so completely,

• my children who are happy to help out, tell me all their news, and between the three of them always make sure I have a hot cup of tea at hand,

• our business – no employer would be as understanding as my husband is at my limited capacity; also now that we work from home, I can do what I can and take as many breaks as I need,

• my little dogs, especially Vincent, who happily snuggles next to me as I doze or read, keeping me warm and giving me love,

• technology – my iphone, my macbookair – both keep me connected to people and provide laughs, entertainment and distraction from the pain and discomfort.

So, as tempting as it is to wallow in self pity and focus on the pain, I’m going to focus on the positives and be thankful for this virus. After all, there is always something to learn from everything life throws at us and I’m not one to pass up a learning opportunity, no matter what brings it to me.

What negative have you turned around to be a positive in your life? I would love to hear about it…and you know I have the time to listen!

10 thoughts on “I’m so glad I’m sick.

  1. I’m grateful you have so many reasons to be thankful for during this time. I wish you much rest. I’ve seen several negatives turn into positives revolving around health issues through the years. Due to Hubby’s recent condition, we’re trying to change our diet as an entire family. I’m certain this will be an interesting adventure.

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    • Oh I wish you well and good luck, Stacy, and I’m sure it will be interesting 🙂 And I’m glad you’ve had some positives in the health department – you deserve it!

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  2. I’m so sorry, and I so feel you. Isn’t it amazing what a total creativity killer pain and discomfort can be? My issue has made me grateful as well. I am amazed by the endurance, patience and love of my in-house caregiver, too. You have a very admirable attitude about this, Susannah. I did my fair share of wallowing and whining, so good for you for focusing on the positive.

    I suppose to answer your question about what good came of my condition, I’ve been thinking this happened at the perfect time. I’d just received a couple of very helpful rejections of my manuscript. You know the kind, where the rejector actually tells you why they rejected. It gave me the space to not rush into anything. I’ve been working on this overall project (4 series manuscripts now) for nine years. I might have just ‘reacted’ to the opinions of just a very few people before considering. Instead, I’ve hashed out the options with my editor, beta readers, and my wife (yes, she’s not only my caregiver, but my most trusted business advisor).I have a new plan of action which is going to take time (frustrating), but which won’t be based on a knee-jerk reaction.

    Sending you wishes for better health, and blessings to you and your amazing family, my friend!

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    • Thank you for your well wishes, Vaughn 🙂 And I hope you are fully better now, too.
      I think what you did with the ‘rejections’ is wonderful – ultimate ‘turn-bad-around-for-good’ scenario! And I just know it’s all going to pay off. It won’t be too long before I see your books at my local bookstore crossing the Aussie shores 🙂

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  3. So sorry for the virus! You are such a trooper, to give thanks for all your blessings when you are in a bad spot. No worries from me – I’ll be here when you get back or if you need to let go the work on the blog or social networking. Feel better! Blessings!

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  4. Sending you my love, prayers and very best thoughts for a speedy recovery*

    *…from my sample submission as a greeting card writer. Didn’t get the job.

    It’s all true darlin (except the job part. That was just a Texas stretch)

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  5. The Ross River Virus sounds a lot like Lyme disease. A good friend of mine has it and similar symptoms. She needs to sleep alot, and like you, she is normally extremely active. But a good attitude makes it go away faster, or at least with less depression and mopiness. Good luck!

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    • Yes, I have heard Lyme’s is very nasty, please send my sympathy and well wishes to your friend. And a good attitude, while sometimes hard to maintain, certainly does make all the difference 🙂

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